..quickie..

i'll just post my quickie update now, since i am very uptight wif ma new schedule, new life, new routine..

* i am on leave rite now, n will be resigning from the company w.e.f 3rd July for a reason, and a sacrifice i can say.. luff ya d co. n d grrreat ppl!

* i am joining KPLI at the jiffy, something i never thought i wud ever do, but HERE I AM now. Lady luck had fell on my lap, giving me chance to start anew, am so glad! I juz can say that the career chooses me this time, and i believe this is the best. no regret!

~~wish me lucksssss ppl~~

xOxO

.excusez-moi, i'm on diet.

Where should I start? Being naturally paranoid (which seem to be partly true about me), and conscious about my health, like always; I have this dilemma. This was particularly at what I put into my mouth, those foods and drinks. Hate me or love me, I am petite + skinny or anything you can call me of. I may eat as much as I want, and going to buffet or any banquet (without adding any grams on my weight) is my specialty, especially with Cinta around. But since lately, I sensed that something wrong within my body, I had become appetite~less and as soon as I finish eating, I became so nauseous that I want to vomit straight away. It sounds so WRONG okay. So I opt to fix this dilemma as soon as possible, armed with various strategies which I should preach to.

Problem statement:
I am petite, at 5 ft 2 I weigh only 43kg on my bad days and occasionally 45kg on good days when I am as happy as sunshine. If I was 6 inches taller at this weight, I maybe hit the runway with other skinny models and should had become the muse of Valentino (hehe, how I wish) and you guys wont be seeing me working here in SFCSB. My body mass index is around 18.1 that make me underweight as at this height I should weigh about 48.6kg. I know~

Caption: Valentino-haute-couture

And FYI, I am NOT anorexic or bulimic or associated with any eating-disorder, thank you.

The perks of being skinny:
I look hot, sizzling and sweaty (overrating myself :) ) on almost anything that had been advertised in fashion magazine, from skinny pants to summer dresses with clinchers and all without hiding the bulge here and there. Other that that, I can horsing on food of whatever it is whenever I want without feeling guilty to put another pound in.

The jerks of being skinny:
I am so missing that well-rounded arse (hehe :) ) that ‘real women’ possesses or being hourglass-figured like Nicole PCD or Salma Hayek. Worst part is, I feel as though I will be blown away by heavy wind or susceptible to broken bones or anything to that extend. (errk..touchwood).

With this, I had signed up with a program that may help me to determine my daily calories intake to help me gain weight. Being at 43kg now, I aimed to weigh for at least 47kg.

After calculation, this is what I assign to:
Date started: 4 June 09 @ 43kg
Goal date: 11 August 09 @ 47kg.
Weight to be gained: 4 kg or +/- 9lbs.
Duration/Target: 9 weeks/ 1 lb per week.

Hmm.. I have to increase my calorie intake up to 2243.1 calories per day if I intend to put on 1 lb per week. Again, how should I start?

24 hours divide by 8 = ??

In a day, we are only granted with 24 hours. Some of us may have ask for another extra hours in a day, but you know, if you can’t manage this beautiful 24 hours, how can you will cope with extra ones. Saying this, it is not that I am efficient at handling my hours; I kinda love my life when it is impromptu, you know it’s like when sometime you planned to go Window Shopping but you end up buying three dresses ala Serena Van Der Woodsen, Blair Waldorf and Jenny Humprey. Isn’t it a wonderful feeling, impromptu shopping? Haha :) You grrls get it rite? For me, I usually live my day by phase in each day,

**First phase (7 a.m until 5 p.m)
-Usually I bangun tido by 7 a.m (and occasionally 7.45 a.m), get my apple cider and honey shot, bath and such, go to my office by 8 a.m. Office is only one minute away from my home.
-8 a.m: Switched on lappy or office p.c, get connected to check email and social network website
-nescafe time, “news update” with kakak2 poret at office
-kerja and sometime pura-pura bekerja
-lunch hour: some cookies and oatmeal, Facebooking or Skype when Cinta is online, or even online shopping and blog-hopping
-2 p.m: kerja lagi dan “kerja” lagi or the never ending Gossip Girl rerun if I am on weekend shift or sometime even curi-curi to siapkan my 1st part time job
-4 p.m: account closing, planning for tomorrow activity with kakak2 poret, “news update” and penggulungan hujah, hehe and sometime online shopping again and memasang angan-angan what to do with my monthly wardrobe update.
-5 p.m: home sweet home

**Second phase (5 p.m until 11 p.m)
-5 p.m: Slowing down, watch cable TV of whatever showing at this time sambil berbaring-baring on the couch and Kit Kat
-Prepare dinner, selalunya pasta, porridge or rice with chicken and greens. Selalunya akan makan bersungguh-sungguh as this is only my heavy meal of the day. Another apple cider and honey shot, clean up myself
-7 p.m up till 9 p.m: my 2nd part-time job (3 times per week) that earned me to pay 10% of my credit card (ouch~~)
-In between, I managed to catch up with whatsoever on primetime news or Oprah Winfrey Show
-Or even bercinta-cinta with Cinta, via phone with something like this:

Me: Hi baby, pa polah?

Cinta: Mam2..

Me: Maggi again?

Cinta: O yes, kan nak save k kawen. U still want that Vivienne Westwood handbag kan babe, as one of the hantaran? Dat’s y~
Me: :)
Ceh, it’s a cliché semata-mata, I am not that mean okay..
-9 p.m till 10 p.m: Continuing to my 1st part-time job, depends on the deadline either I have to push myself or not. This part time job earning can be used to pay my Astro bill and to buy me monthly supply of collagen drinks and few dresses and tops at a “Gossip Girl Store” as my BFF and me call it.
-10 p.m till 11 p.m: Supper with some crackers and plain hot choc drinks, watch TV, mini facial, EPO pill and other preparation to doze off. Before that, berkata-kata cinta with Cinta..haruss!

**Third phase (11 p.m until 7 p.m)
-A must-have beauty sleep where the most crucial time is from 11 p.m until 1 a.m, when your skin renew itself at this time and the collagen production is at its peak.
-Doze doze doze
-And sometime tersedar with annoying missed calls or whatever message from the phone
-Sweet dream of another shopping or date with Cinta
-7 a.m, my alarm starts to scream lagu Pingu
-Another day is to be lived

So that is my typical working day, I supposed. I have to keep myself positive and happy throughout the day, so I won’t be de-energized by the end of first phase. Cinta dan kecintaan seharusnya 24-hours di dalam hati and any angst and despise is to be keep at minimum or non-existence level, as hatred only makes you look ugly. I believe so, do you?

Keep your BFFs close but keep your “frenemies” closer

Personally I chose not to have anyone that loathes me, if I could. But since lately, rasanya semacam ada someone had been messing with my life, my personal life to be exact. Let say that someone is a GUY!! Oh please, never in my life, I knew a guy could be so kepoh. My personal life seems to be under microscope since lately, when anything and everything that I have done and am doing is being scrutinized. Sungguh I tidak get it if he necessarily has to know how am I when I was in my college days, or if anyone ever like me or not, or any of my attitude yang had been contributed to my good or bad things in my life. I mean, that was YEARS ago. He needs not to call my lecturers or my course mates, just for the sake to get any information about a famous me especially bad ones. Kan weird, if exactly after someone yang poret (kawan saya J ) informed that this guy had called si anu and anu in my college days interrogating about me, then in mere minutes came someone (i.e my senior time study at uni) called me to ask ridiculous things. Like the answers are supposed to be things-in-front-of-your-effing-eyes, biatch!

It’s been months since I am living life like this. Keangolan itu is very much, but now I am kinda used to it. At first, I cried damn much, seeing that this is how life treats me. But after that, I just came around and started to see that life is not mean after all. It is just how some freak reacts on his plain stupidity and jealousy towards me. However lately, the situation had improved, a little bit towards positivity I can say. This guy had started to talk to me again, heed me like I am already visible to him though no tete-a-tete yet. Thank God, but alas, I still keep my distant. I don’t really know if this someone is a friend or a foe.

Obviously I don’t need any BFF anymore, and maybe he is just some sort of “frenemy”. I only need to keep him closer, to be au fait with his biatchy strategies, in case he will repeat to treat me inhumanely and violating my privacy; sure me myself will stand and end up messing with his life, though apparently he has no life. Lame and pathetic, oopsie~~

hiatus from my blogspot

i was and am verry buzzzy enjoying my life and my so~called life
so dat's the reason of this long hiatus
no offense!

hum~drum of my tummy

Uhh.. I am kinda cranky rite now, not yet going back home after a cranky day of working.. Had to stay back due to some matter of the troublesome visitor.. and my stomach now is playing good sound of hum~drum.. i am famished..huhu! I can't wait to be at home, and to cook my favvy:

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* NASI GORENG CENDAWAN.

Yay~~ hope I can blog what I've cooked by tomorrow.. hopefully!

P/s: Hunger makes me cranky..

Currently~~

I am currently attending an Asian Waterbird Census Technique Workshop at Miri
Hmm.. pretty excitind (and) tiring and
Be back soon
Layta~~