What's for lunch today?

One thing that I am excited during school holiday is I get to cook my own dish for lunch. And later in the day, I might be cooking dinner for hubby too. Precious precious hihi.

So, what's for my lunch today?

Tempe and chicken fillet in Thai chilli sauce.

Yummy!

What's yours for lunch? Enjoy your meal babes!

Life is fragile. Handle with prayer.

Today result EGTukar kuar. Neves gila nak checked, though I know the result is expected : TIDAK DILULUSKAN. So nampaknya Cikgu Vain ini still lagi akan dok sini, mengajar sini lagi and jaoh lagi from Hubby. Lepas dapat result, terus call Hubby, informed him and menangis sedikit barang setitik dua air mata yang berharga ini. Siap hiding dalam class Tahun 2 pegi menangis, luckily today I am wearing waterproof mascara on my eyes and a foolproof heart in one hand. So takdak scene aksi-aksi meroyan sedih tak dapat berpindah. The reason is: I have been through a lot of heart-wrenching moments this year. So to cry is never an option anymore, maka harusnya saya bertabahan hati untuk go on with my life, buat plan B, C, D et al and terus tawadhuk bertaqwa kat Allah, for He will give more than anything I ask for, with HIS timing and HIS way. I strongly have faith in that, inshaAllah. 

Yah, I know hidup I tak selancar and sesempurna orang lain, semakin banyak cabaran. But the, banyak mistakes I sendiri, and everyday tika diuji sekecil-kecilnya or besar sekali pun, I always telling myself to redha, and keep in trying my best to pray semoga saya semakin kuat untuk menghadapi segalanya. Like a lovely friend of mine say, "Life is fragile, handle with prayer". Very true, jangan underestimate the power of prayer and zikr. InshaAllah hidup akan tenang and cool-cool jer no matter apa ujian kita. So kawan-kawan Muslimin dan Muslimah sekalian, and especially myself Noa yang Vain, jangan ngelat lagi solat and baca Quran okay. 

On TTC progress pulak, I think I dah ovulate this week, Siap demam-demam lagi. But yeah, I dun wanna stress myself much on that. Stop for a while consuming EPO after ovulation, reducing my Habbatus Sauda pills cz I still got confusion of this thingy, label kat botol cakap preggers tak boleh consume, tapi banyak omputeh Muslimah suggest to amik this Black Seeds time pregnant, it is good. So saya confuse and in the middle right now. Puzzle puzzle. Selain itu dah start amalkan bacaan surah Al-Waqiah and Surah Maryam after Maghrib, and Salawat Tafrijiyah 11 times after every solat. Semoga ikhtiar rohaniah saya berhasil, Amiiin :)

Tapi kalau belum pun, saya tetap syukur and redha. Allah knows best, adalah better plan dari-Nya untuk saya nanti. 

♥The closest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.
The one who bows down to Allah can stand up to anything.

3.11.11

3.11.11 : It's our 11th month being together.

our very first step :)

I feel so blessed, so contented in my marriage life now (minus the LDR part). But sokayy, we managed to weather the storm of living apart together, and I haven't cease praying to  the Almighty for the strength and opportunity for me to be under a roof with Moi Beloved. InshaAllah taala, ada jalannya :)

11th month, so much happened that makes us fonder to each other. A week ago, it should be my EDD for our deeply missed lil angel, to be exact 28.10.11. This is our first EDD based on my LMP, but during the first tummy scan, the doc estimated our due date should be 20.11.2011. Pretty date right? But ya, we definitely can accept the test Allah gave us, redha :) We believe ada lah rezeki afterward, Allah Maha Pemurah, Maha Mengetahui. He has a better plan for us, I know. And I am doing my part now, by TTC-ing since Ramadhan. From what I observed, my Miss Red Spot comes on the dot every month, cycling from 27-28 days. Macam best kan dapat regular and on time period, but quite a sigh sigh here, cz tak dak chance lagi to 'pee-on-a-stick' as deeply inside, i wish for a day or two delay. Hihi :) But reading between the line, it is a good sign actually since i can estimate my fertile and ovulation days every month. The downside is: I don't have my hubby for baby dance during that windows. Aigoo..LDR and TTC doesn't come hand-in-hand.

He'll make a good father!

But worry not, cuti sekolah is around the corner. Yay! boleh TTC dengan tegar dan bersungguh-sungguh. InshaAllah, I will banyakkan doa and amalan yang disarankan to conceive. I need baby dust y'all. Pray for me, and my prayers go to all Dream Mothers out there.

Badly needed!

Muahs!

Happy as a whale *wink!wink!*

Last weekend was a lonesome one. Hubby was not home, he's got some migration works to do and I was jaded. hmm..hubby's work bunyinya macam vampire ala Edward team kan, migrating..hihi, I can't wait November though. oh..Look!

Facebook status sebagai evidens. Wahhh :)

And yea, I baked! A potato and cheese pie for errr..i dunno whether for dinner and supper. Thank God the pie was very easy to prepare and bake, and

VOILA!

Potato and cheese pie, before heading up to the oven :P

Nice looking stuff right? This pie indeed makes me a happy whale, cause I am so loving the combination of potato and cheese. I've made one for my sista's open house, last two weeks. And I was glad it was the hit amongst the visiting friends and relatives.

The hit for the last day in Syawal :)

And here, I'd like to share the recipe for you babes and dudes. Happy trying people!

Resipi Potato and Cheese Pie -versi Happy Whale!

6 biji kentang-saiz sederhana

Secawan susu UHT

2 biji telur

Garam, serbuk perisa, lada sulah

125g gram butter

Cheddar cheese- jenis slice dan bar

Daging (boleh pilih samada sosej atau meatloaf, paling best guna ayamas)

Breadcrumbs

Here's how-to!

1. Kentang dibuang kulit, rebus sampai empuk, ditos dan dilecek.

2. Setelah kentang dilecek, masukkan butter dan 3 keping cheese. Gaulkan sampai hancur n smooth.

3. Masukkan susu.

4. Telur dipukul dengan garam, serbuk perisa n lada. Lepas tu masukkan kedalam kentang tadi. Gaul sampai sebati. Kalau kentang tu tak smooth sgt, boleh blend.

4. Griskan acuan dgn butter. Masukkan setengah adunan kentang.

5. Susun kan satu lapisan sosej atau meatloaf. Then susun kan satu lapisan cheese keping. It will take you about 5 slices of cheese.

6, Masukkan lebihan adunan. Parut cheddar cheese (bar)l dan taburkan di atas sekali.

7. Lastly, taburkan satu lapisan nipis breadcrumbs. Potongkan butter yg beku kecil2, Letakkan jarang2 secara random on top of all.

8. Bakar di dalam oven, degree 200 darjah sehingga masak. Selepas siap, biarkan a while before dipotong ya.

Hope ada yang nak try lah, seswai sangat for tea-time, it's easy to make, cheap, yummy and menggemokkan! furthermore dapat banyak pahala when uols rajin buat for your hubby and anak-anak tercinta. 

Hihi. Till then, mmmwahhx!

Bajet 2012

I wonder, it goes like this..

When Najib announced on the budget that the government will raise the salary and pay half month bonus to their 'servants', people of private sectors are disappointed as they got non and claim this as unfair. 

Please think this way, we work for government, so I do think that the government is the party that should raise our salary and give out bonus to us. Not the MNC like Shell, Petronas or company like TM, Kedai Basikal Ah Huat or whatever right. 

Does it make sense since Hubby is working with TM, and when TM raise Hubby's salary and give out 2 months bonus to him, I should claim the raise and bonus too from TM? Nooooo, right, since I am working with the government and not with TM. Oh do I make sense here?

In My Shoes

"Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel it hurts you, it will probably hurt the other person, too.”

Anyone wanna be in my shoes? Okay, lemme bring you how I wear my shoes, a pair of pointe shoes on a gravel roads. Versi kampung-kampung jer. Hmm okay, it goes like this. Me- Noa Hamrin, graduated from a uni, got an internship with a company where as the internship should be completed in 3 years with a very basic wages. But some how twas been shortened into 2 years. Nailed a permanent job in the same company, but was being relocated far far away from family. Twas no regret at all landing on the job, I love every part of it, fantabulous friends, flexible work scene, no uniform, skinny jeans all day long but the villain part is there- my boss and a group of need-to-grow-up bitches (read: fat!). and oh sorry, if you guys happen to read this. Then,  I felt bored, I need something new, something more challenging. Sat for an exam of a post-grads diploma to be a teacher. I did not revise anything at all, sempat shoppink2 with my babe, set rambut cantek2 before sit the exam. Good luck. I passed. Then attended an interview, with very lil preparation, Better luck. I got a place. Then the bad part came, I had to quit the job I "love",  and broke. Miskin gila that time, since I have to pay for the compensation of 2 months salary and at the same time I need some money to pay and pursue the diploma. 

Lived one years in a stranger lands, met up with fantabulous friends again. a very different scene from uni. Loads of assignments and everything else. And I experienced lotsa breakdown at the jiffy. After a year plus, we got posted to various places and holes and caves and mountains around Sarawak. And here I am now, teaching at a school near a river, with crocs. Sokayyy, no problem at all. Life changes from time to time, after a month working, I got engaged to the Love of My Life. And being a wifey to him 3 months after that. We are like a set of happy bunny, crazier to each other everyday and then, we were pregnant. A happy happy me broke the news to the world as early as my 6th week. But since hubby and me live a long-distance marriage, it means that we take care on ourselves most of the time. During the pregnancy, I do take care of myself. My way. Being actively doing home works in an OCD way, cleaning the house, sweeping, scrubbing the toilet, and cooking almost everyday on my own tho I stay with a house mate. And then the worse part happened, since the kampung that I live in has no clean water supply, I had to carry gallons of water everyday for my personal use : bathing, cleaning, drinking! A pregger yet I was very hardworking and strong than ever, It was the moment that I thought I can take care of myself. 

But unfortunately on my 11th weeks, I bleed which led hubby to rush over from Kuching to take care of me. The worst part was we miscarriaged at my 14th weeks. But for me, life goes on. I even attended my diploma convocation a day after my D&C, keeping myself cheery and happy as ever. But only Hubby knows how sad I am, cz either with him or me alone that I cried my heart out when the motherly feelings throb inside me. Going back to school, I continue to give my best and my not so best in teaching my pupils and serving my responsibility with few added work loads (that's supposed not to be mine-- okay, agak berkira di sini). And I believe I had done my best in doing my jobs. End of year, all teachers know and anticipate it's time for us to apply for relocation; for few familiar reasons like to be in a same place with your spouse (SO ME!!), health problems, family members need attention due to health problems, safety and death threats etc. I applied, filled in the form with lotsa hope (since I wanna badly to be with my Hubby, since we had been TTC for three months now and I am ready to be a pregger again). Sent out the form for verification of my superior, but yet he verified my application with the statement: THE APPLICATION IS SUPPORTED BUT THE TEACHER IS A NOMINEES FOR ENGLISH UPSR TEACHER 2012. Oh, kepalahotak betul, ko ingat this is a grammy award ada nominees-nominees? I nak pindah. 

SO HOW? 

Venci okayyy dengan orang-orang yang kurang consideration. Ya Allah, please guide me and lead me through all the test in my life, It is you and only you that i seek a help to. Amiiin.

I need to put back my feet on the ground, I need better shoes.

Sesuai untuk menari burlesque gitu :p

Two months.

It's been two months since our little Angel was miscarriaged, and I haven't been able to write anything about this. Dah cuba, but I always ended up cry myself to sleep. Esok pagi, bangun tido and I always got these red puffy eyes. Happens weekly, no questions ask. Cause I miss to have and to feel the precious one inside my tummy..it's our baby, our lil Angel :'( cause sometimes I still have my what ifs..what ifs..and what ifs..

Sebenarnya, we knew we were miscarriaged a week before the natural miscarriage terjadi (23rd April 2011). It was our first visit to KPJ, meeting Dr Philip, and I can't help but to cry my heart out bila the doc cakap our baby was not growing anymore. And according to my first UPT, our baby should be dah 4 months at that time. Oh kasehnya.. My hubby and me just keep silence of this diagnose. And at the same time, I still keep googling for any possiblities and opinions from friends and sources I can found, if the doctor ever misdiagnosed. Hmm..tinggi nya harapan ketika itu..Tapi semuanya Allah dah tentukan, apa yang dipinjamkan harus dikembalikan.With hubby by my side, I learn to redha, step by step. No, worse. It was bits by bits. And when finally the miscarriage happened naturally, it was only my hubby and me at home. Everyone left for vacay in KL. I did whine how the cramping of my uterus was hurt me badly, like it was the most horrible pain that I ever felt. But Alhamdulillah, hubby keep reminding me untuk redha dengan apa terjadi. And thanks to his effort and strength, hubby memang keep accompanying me back and forth from toilet to bed at that time.  though I knew deep inside, he must be scared of the amount of blood I shed on that particular day.

Thanks Hubby, awaklah cinta saya dunia dan akhirat.

Baeklah, till here..cause I still rasa it was not easy to write.

I miss my guardian angel, my hubby

and our lil angel, our baby :')