The Questions : The One That You Asked Me vs The One That I Kept to Myself

Phew Phew Phew.. Cuti sekolah dah nak abis rupanya :[ So maybe akan slow down lah sesi riang ria kanak-kanak sekolah, guru-guru sekolah and boleh lah maks and paks andam rileks and caterer cuci periuk belanga uols cz Alhamdulillah banyak dah yang bertemu jodoh :) *wink wink* Congrates ya to all couples esp cuzzy saya, friends from high school, varsity, maktabs, my previous company and everywhere uols lah. So, sepanjang cuti tok, Noa yang Vain sik lah banyak pergi pengilan sebab in a way, I think I have turn myself into *a lil bit of* anti-social. You know, influenced by faktor sekeliling especially after miscarriage, terasa malasnya nak bersosial ish ish. Tengok kiri and kanan, cuzzys and friends and random people my age semua dah ada "handbags". Oh la kasih kedirik. Saya yang Vain tok apalah yang ada, ada handbag pun bukan ada botol susu or what else di dalam, hanya ada compact powder, perfume, lip balm and tablet jer. Tak funky pun kan. Ditambah lagik at majlis sosial, everyone especially yang dah ada "handbags" and aunty-aunty asyik2 jak tanyak these questions : Dah ada kerr? Dah berisik? Haih, berisik juak badan kitak, mesti peknen nak? Eh kitak tok jak yang gik slim, belom kah? Dah mengidam kerrr?

Haih haih, muluts uols, nasib iols pengilan sik bawak cabik koh. Insensitive langsung kan? I think, if I ever get pregnant pun kan, InshaAllah I sik akan bising-bising koh. Like seriously, a bump will show bah mun masa dah time. U got what I mean rite? Like a previous one, happynya time I know that hubby and me were pregnant, but semuanya pinjaman belaka. Redha, Alhamdulillah and now TTC again, but rasanya if people around me are the sensitive type, sik perlu lah ask these questions kannnnnn? I know lah badan I dah ala Kim Kardashian, curvy mengalahkan preggers, hihi. But that doesn't mean I am pregnant, that is I am preparing my body towards pregnancy, boleh? *Alasan semata-mata after I gain almost 10 pounds sebab hati gembira makan ajerrr time school oliday tok.*

Make it this way, I sik ada pun bertanyak ngan uols these questions, "Bila u nak berlaki baru tek?" (kepada isteri yang ditinggalkan suami, "Bila u nak tutup aurat?" (kepada uols yang belom bertudung), "Haih, lamak juak u menganggur, sik rugi kah belajar lamak-lamak?" (kepada uols yang belom bekerja), or "Bila u nak kurus?" (kepada uols yang dah tambah berat badan macam diri sendiri ini). Sigh, maybe iols sik pandey nak bersosial cara uols, asking insensitive questions all the time rite. Memang anti-sosial.

So this cuti, I put on weight, badan I dah bertambah spare tyre di hadapan dan belakang, makan berselera, and some hormone imbalance that rock my cycle, and a question I kept to myself, "I tok gemok free kah?". Bengong :( 

Boleh kah I wear this kind of t-shirt time pegi pengilan, pair with a PopLook dress, 

long cardi and a shawl, gerenti meletops kan?

**Disclaimer: Entry ini bukan bermaksud saya ada hatred towards pregnant moms and moms all over the world, it's just that I am so badly wanna be like u babes and sometime I yang vain tok pun boleh rasa down during that time of the month. Excusez moi :P