Happy as a whale *wink!wink!*

Last weekend was a lonesome one. Hubby was not home, he's got some migration works to do and I was jaded. hmm..hubby's work bunyinya macam vampire ala Edward team kan, migrating..hihi, I can't wait November though. oh..Look!

Facebook status sebagai evidens. Wahhh :)

And yea, I baked! A potato and cheese pie for errr..i dunno whether for dinner and supper. Thank God the pie was very easy to prepare and bake, and

VOILA!

Potato and cheese pie, before heading up to the oven :P

Nice looking stuff right? This pie indeed makes me a happy whale, cause I am so loving the combination of potato and cheese. I've made one for my sista's open house, last two weeks. And I was glad it was the hit amongst the visiting friends and relatives.

The hit for the last day in Syawal :)

And here, I'd like to share the recipe for you babes and dudes. Happy trying people!

Resipi Potato and Cheese Pie -versi Happy Whale!

6 biji kentang-saiz sederhana

Secawan susu UHT

2 biji telur

Garam, serbuk perisa, lada sulah

125g gram butter

Cheddar cheese- jenis slice dan bar

Daging (boleh pilih samada sosej atau meatloaf, paling best guna ayamas)

Breadcrumbs

Here's how-to!

1. Kentang dibuang kulit, rebus sampai empuk, ditos dan dilecek.

2. Setelah kentang dilecek, masukkan butter dan 3 keping cheese. Gaulkan sampai hancur n smooth.

3. Masukkan susu.

4. Telur dipukul dengan garam, serbuk perisa n lada. Lepas tu masukkan kedalam kentang tadi. Gaul sampai sebati. Kalau kentang tu tak smooth sgt, boleh blend.

4. Griskan acuan dgn butter. Masukkan setengah adunan kentang.

5. Susun kan satu lapisan sosej atau meatloaf. Then susun kan satu lapisan cheese keping. It will take you about 5 slices of cheese.

6, Masukkan lebihan adunan. Parut cheddar cheese (bar)l dan taburkan di atas sekali.

7. Lastly, taburkan satu lapisan nipis breadcrumbs. Potongkan butter yg beku kecil2, Letakkan jarang2 secara random on top of all.

8. Bakar di dalam oven, degree 200 darjah sehingga masak. Selepas siap, biarkan a while before dipotong ya.

Hope ada yang nak try lah, seswai sangat for tea-time, it's easy to make, cheap, yummy and menggemokkan! furthermore dapat banyak pahala when uols rajin buat for your hubby and anak-anak tercinta. 

Hihi. Till then, mmmwahhx!

Bajet 2012

I wonder, it goes like this..

When Najib announced on the budget that the government will raise the salary and pay half month bonus to their 'servants', people of private sectors are disappointed as they got non and claim this as unfair. 

Please think this way, we work for government, so I do think that the government is the party that should raise our salary and give out bonus to us. Not the MNC like Shell, Petronas or company like TM, Kedai Basikal Ah Huat or whatever right. 

Does it make sense since Hubby is working with TM, and when TM raise Hubby's salary and give out 2 months bonus to him, I should claim the raise and bonus too from TM? Nooooo, right, since I am working with the government and not with TM. Oh do I make sense here?

In My Shoes

"Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel it hurts you, it will probably hurt the other person, too.”

Anyone wanna be in my shoes? Okay, lemme bring you how I wear my shoes, a pair of pointe shoes on a gravel roads. Versi kampung-kampung jer. Hmm okay, it goes like this. Me- Noa Hamrin, graduated from a uni, got an internship with a company where as the internship should be completed in 3 years with a very basic wages. But some how twas been shortened into 2 years. Nailed a permanent job in the same company, but was being relocated far far away from family. Twas no regret at all landing on the job, I love every part of it, fantabulous friends, flexible work scene, no uniform, skinny jeans all day long but the villain part is there- my boss and a group of need-to-grow-up bitches (read: fat!). and oh sorry, if you guys happen to read this. Then,  I felt bored, I need something new, something more challenging. Sat for an exam of a post-grads diploma to be a teacher. I did not revise anything at all, sempat shoppink2 with my babe, set rambut cantek2 before sit the exam. Good luck. I passed. Then attended an interview, with very lil preparation, Better luck. I got a place. Then the bad part came, I had to quit the job I "love",  and broke. Miskin gila that time, since I have to pay for the compensation of 2 months salary and at the same time I need some money to pay and pursue the diploma. 

Lived one years in a stranger lands, met up with fantabulous friends again. a very different scene from uni. Loads of assignments and everything else. And I experienced lotsa breakdown at the jiffy. After a year plus, we got posted to various places and holes and caves and mountains around Sarawak. And here I am now, teaching at a school near a river, with crocs. Sokayyy, no problem at all. Life changes from time to time, after a month working, I got engaged to the Love of My Life. And being a wifey to him 3 months after that. We are like a set of happy bunny, crazier to each other everyday and then, we were pregnant. A happy happy me broke the news to the world as early as my 6th week. But since hubby and me live a long-distance marriage, it means that we take care on ourselves most of the time. During the pregnancy, I do take care of myself. My way. Being actively doing home works in an OCD way, cleaning the house, sweeping, scrubbing the toilet, and cooking almost everyday on my own tho I stay with a house mate. And then the worse part happened, since the kampung that I live in has no clean water supply, I had to carry gallons of water everyday for my personal use : bathing, cleaning, drinking! A pregger yet I was very hardworking and strong than ever, It was the moment that I thought I can take care of myself. 

But unfortunately on my 11th weeks, I bleed which led hubby to rush over from Kuching to take care of me. The worst part was we miscarriaged at my 14th weeks. But for me, life goes on. I even attended my diploma convocation a day after my D&C, keeping myself cheery and happy as ever. But only Hubby knows how sad I am, cz either with him or me alone that I cried my heart out when the motherly feelings throb inside me. Going back to school, I continue to give my best and my not so best in teaching my pupils and serving my responsibility with few added work loads (that's supposed not to be mine-- okay, agak berkira di sini). And I believe I had done my best in doing my jobs. End of year, all teachers know and anticipate it's time for us to apply for relocation; for few familiar reasons like to be in a same place with your spouse (SO ME!!), health problems, family members need attention due to health problems, safety and death threats etc. I applied, filled in the form with lotsa hope (since I wanna badly to be with my Hubby, since we had been TTC for three months now and I am ready to be a pregger again). Sent out the form for verification of my superior, but yet he verified my application with the statement: THE APPLICATION IS SUPPORTED BUT THE TEACHER IS A NOMINEES FOR ENGLISH UPSR TEACHER 2012. Oh, kepalahotak betul, ko ingat this is a grammy award ada nominees-nominees? I nak pindah. 

SO HOW? 

Venci okayyy dengan orang-orang yang kurang consideration. Ya Allah, please guide me and lead me through all the test in my life, It is you and only you that i seek a help to. Amiiin.

I need to put back my feet on the ground, I need better shoes.

Sesuai untuk menari burlesque gitu :p

Two months.

It's been two months since our little Angel was miscarriaged, and I haven't been able to write anything about this. Dah cuba, but I always ended up cry myself to sleep. Esok pagi, bangun tido and I always got these red puffy eyes. Happens weekly, no questions ask. Cause I miss to have and to feel the precious one inside my tummy..it's our baby, our lil Angel :'( cause sometimes I still have my what ifs..what ifs..and what ifs..

Sebenarnya, we knew we were miscarriaged a week before the natural miscarriage terjadi (23rd April 2011). It was our first visit to KPJ, meeting Dr Philip, and I can't help but to cry my heart out bila the doc cakap our baby was not growing anymore. And according to my first UPT, our baby should be dah 4 months at that time. Oh kasehnya.. My hubby and me just keep silence of this diagnose. And at the same time, I still keep googling for any possiblities and opinions from friends and sources I can found, if the doctor ever misdiagnosed. Hmm..tinggi nya harapan ketika itu..Tapi semuanya Allah dah tentukan, apa yang dipinjamkan harus dikembalikan.With hubby by my side, I learn to redha, step by step. No, worse. It was bits by bits. And when finally the miscarriage happened naturally, it was only my hubby and me at home. Everyone left for vacay in KL. I did whine how the cramping of my uterus was hurt me badly, like it was the most horrible pain that I ever felt. But Alhamdulillah, hubby keep reminding me untuk redha dengan apa terjadi. And thanks to his effort and strength, hubby memang keep accompanying me back and forth from toilet to bed at that time.  though I knew deep inside, he must be scared of the amount of blood I shed on that particular day.

Thanks Hubby, awaklah cinta saya dunia dan akhirat.

Baeklah, till here..cause I still rasa it was not easy to write.

I miss my guardian angel, my hubby

and our lil angel, our baby :')

Just like Giuliana and Bill..

They are super lovely right? The fact is undeniable..

[Giuliana and Bill, lovelies]

We are just like them..
Just like Giuliana and Bill..
  In love ©©©

    Got married
      Still crazy in love with each other
         We get PREGNANT
              and now, we MISCARRIAGE..

..but still stay strong for each other no matter what..

p/s: I  love you Bill  Hubby, you know  I do.. Muahsss!

Noa will ditch her skinny pants for another 8 months.

"Let you put your hands on me

In my skin-tight jeans

Be your teenage dream tonight"

Haih, sekda lagik lah Noa yang Vain nak berlagu gya ngan hubby nya koh lekak tok, apa tek nya dah sik layak lagik nak makey skinny pants gittew. Buang jak skinny pants ku tek, piluk ati mun nak makey mun sik dapat di kancin koh. Kinek tok mun ada hati nak makey, retinya sik berkancin lah ya, ada pah bes key nahan sik hal oh. Pakey dengan dress pendek girly-girly gittew, voley? Coverina okay! :) Or put madah tok ialah unbuttoned pants syndrome, which was dialami oleh most of si rina-rina yang prego seperti yang dipadah dalam blog Celebrity Mum. Kelless lah kan baca blog kedak tok. Harusss..

Semuanya terjadi since early February rya lah, tekak tok teringin gilak nak makan chocolate cake, but sik main lah chocolate cake nak dibeli kat Tamu k breakfast ujung minggu lekak meli dak sayo and ikan gembung. Mok juak dari Secret Recipe. Mun dah nya Vain, mesti lah demand and ngansarina nak. Sik dapat dipisahkan combo tok bah.

Turun lah ke Kuching tek, nak pengilan kawan my hubby kawen. Sambil-sambil ya harus lah nyelepat ke Spring, Nak ke Secret Recipe. Tapi......lebih afdal mun ada orang cia. Dah lah dirik ngidam, sik lah dirik juak ngeluar duit nak. Cokot ya harus eh, sik kaya kita kelak. Rondeng punya rondeng, terus Noa yang Vain call abang nya, or lebih glamour gik dengan nama panggilan as "Pak Aji", adaptasi dari nama Haji Bakhil, dalam ceta Labu Labi. Paham-paham jak lah oh mun orang dah ditunggah Pak Aji tok, haruslah nya or kay tapi cokot. Hihi. Opppss..sorry Pak Aji.

Berjaya lah Pak Aji di pow tek, Beef Lasagna dan White-and-Dark Chocolate Cake. Nyem skalsssss, sebab nya nang nyemm apa lagik makan free. I loike.

[ Beef Lasagna yang nyemmm skals. Pix credits to Googles ]

[ White-and-Dark Chocolate Cake, yang diidam-idamkan. Pix credits to Googles ]

Selepas makan ya tek, teruslah Noa yang Vain live happily ever after...until last Friday night :(

Tetiba jak time relax-relax tunggu hubby datang dari Kuching, Noa yang Vain merasa sakit yang amat sangat ala-ala period pain and cramp at her abdomen area, to be exact at the womb area. Told ya sakit tok is wayyy lebih sakit yang us girls dapat time MayDay kita ya, nang sakit. Alu run-run lah Noa yang Vain nangis nahan sakit, sik pernah rasa sakit kedak tok gilak, and sik pernah Noa yang Vain nak nangis kerana sakit melainkan sakit ati and sakit rindu. Begitulah ceritanya, tetapi lekak ya ditambah lagik dengan rasa hangol-hangolan pening palak tapi sekda rasa nak muntah. Nang hazab eh.

Datang lah hubby nya tek kol 9 pm lalu gya, so harus lah sakit akan berlipat ganda dan tangisan lebih run-run lagik kan? Haih, drama ko ya. Tapi mun dah sakit sik ku bulak koh. Nang sakit, tapi sempat lagik neman hubby makan Nasi Ayam Penyet yang nyemm skals yang ditapau earlier that night. Oh nampak kali sik masak nak. Rasanya sendat juak geruk hubby makan nangga Noa yang Vain nangis run-run dengan rambutnya ala Victoria Secret Angel mengurai gittew.

[ Nasi Ayam Penyet yang nyuruh geruk hubby sendat coz ada perem drama gilak malam ya. Pix credits to Googles ]

Dipendekkan cerita, maybe mak and hubby sik rajin nangga Noa yang Vain nangis, alu disuruh nya pergi ke Emergency Ward di hospital sitok. Mun diekot rasa ati ngenang hospital ya lame, sik maok pergi eh. But at the same time takut insan-insan yang sabar tok datang antu jadi Noa yang Vain menurut perintah jak lah.

Sampey kat Hospital, selepas setengah jam nunggu, masuk lah berjumpa dengan MA yang in charge malam ya. Macam-macam juak ditanyak nya tek, antaranya:

MA: Ada cheery beery sik sakit perut tok?

Si Vain: Sekda lah, nya just rasa nyucuk-nyucuk jak, ngansarina gittew.

MA: Period pain kali nak? Dah period lom?

Si Vain: Lom eh, lambat dah period mek tok. Lamak juak dah lom mohar sempena Mayday.

MA: Bah, adalah tok. Bila last kitak period?

Si Vain: End of January.

MA: Time kitak kemih tadik da rasa sakit sik? Ada rasa panas sik?

Si Vain: Sakit sekda lah rasa, tapi ukan mun kita kemih nang rasa panas jak nya kuar kah? *statement tak bleh blah dah kuar*

MA: Aok oh, camne kitak makan kinek tok? Banyak nak?

Si Vain: *Ko nak madah ku gemok kah? <-- Berkata dalam ati.* aok, nang kamek maok jak nyawa makan nek tok.

MA: Mun gya molah UPT lah kita tok. Mun sekda isik baruk dapat merik ubat.

Jadi, atas advice hubby terus lah molah Urine Pregnancy Test (UPT) di tengah malam butak kat emergency ward ya. Actually last week dah molah dah test ya, guna Home Pregnancy Test (HPT), memang ada two lines ya but very faint color nya. Madot bah. And hubby datang malam ya tek da juak nya purchase 3 HPT k memuaskan hati Noa yang Vain, atas nama cinta, sedangkan Noa yang Vain mintak beli yang digital mpun, brand ClearBlue kedak dipakey cdak dalam cerita Gossip Girl. Harus ngansarina nak, tapi malangnya hubby sik ketemu benda ya. Or lak disuruh bebeli barang gitok sik nya pandey koh, sik ku bulak, hihi.

[ ClearBlue Digital Pregnancy Test yang menjadi idaman, tetapi Si Vain hanya mampu redha dengan HPT brand Guardian jer. Pix credits to Googles ]

Okay, test yang sepatutnya ditauk result dalam 5 minit haruslah menjadi 30 minit di hospital kedak tok, apatah lagik di tengah malam. Around 1140 pm gya baruk ditunggah balit masuk dalam bilit MA ya lagik.

MA: Sik dapat kamek merik ubat sakit kitak tok, sebab nang berisik :)

Oh, terus Noa yang Vain dan hubby suk kedirik. Hmm, pandey juak honey bun dalam womb tok molah drama. Jangan drama macam Fasha Sandha sudehhhh, macam Blair Waldorf voley okay.

MA: Tahniah lah oh, jaga jak dirik bagus-bagus. Mun ada sakit macam tok lagik minum jak aek banyak-banyak. Coz belum boleh makan Panadol or painkiller time tok.

Hubby: Berapa bulan dah Noa yang Vain tok prego?

MA: Ekot anggran adalah dalam 5 weeks 6 days. Tanggar jak kitak duak macam nya duak tok (sambil muncong jungor ke cgek couple ngembak baby nya demam maybe).. gya lah mun dah beranak klak. Kitak duak tok first time nak?

Si Vain: Aok, first time, *sambil nangga baby kat treatment chair sebelah dengan penuh keibuan, oh kaseh... ko ada?

Lekak ya balit lah Noa yang Vain and hubby ke rumah tek, alu ilang rasa sakit or cramps yang menusuk rahim nya tek. Kotan happy, alu nyambung makan nasi ayam penyet pada pukul 1210 am gittew. SIk takut gemok gik dah hihi, apa tek dah tauk nya prego.

Sebelum balit tek, ada juak MA ya mesan jangan makan udang sia (udang alus) and kacang parang (or known as Kacang Kotet from my mom) hihi.

[ Kacang kotet. Pix credits to Googles ]

Okay, dun worry MA, hubby i berik makan udang galah jer. Chees-baked lagi tu :)

[ Cheese-baked prawn yang we ols makan kat Rock Road Seafood last week. Nyemmm skalss, nang superb ]

Last but not least,

"We're not fat, we're just pregnant :) "

[ Latest pix from us couple, xoxo ]

Nota kaki: Happy growing up honey bun, and happy growing my tummy :) and to my beloved skinny pants, till we meet again in a year :)

Lonesome.

One of the jerk of living alone is when you need somebody to talk to in personal, it cant happen in anyways. Then, you'll end up mumbling on your own, or updating ridiculous status on your social network website....or publishing one or two entry like this. Technology may helps, but for now, i am tad tired and bored connecting via gadgets. I need the classic conversations with people that close and dear to me, where comforting may lead to the warmth of hugs, that accompany by soothing words telling me "you'll be okay". Is that too much of what i ever wanted now?

Oh my, i miss my hubby and my babes :'(

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